ICU Registered Nurse. Atheist. Bookworm. Jill-of-all-arts.

'What’s the difference?' I asked him. 'Between the love of your life, and your soulmate?'
‘One is a choice, and one is not.’

—Tarryn Fisher, Mud Vein  (via paperlover)

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heartbreak shall be the best memory givenso that we can see the world differently once againand it will, still, be new and beautiful
be in front of me while I am riding through lifegrowing, blooming, smiling

heartbreak shall be the best memory given
so that we can see the world differently once again
and it will, still, be new and beautiful

be in front of me while I am riding through life
growing, blooming, smiling

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She was a compulsive pessimist, always looking for the soft brown spot in the fruit, pressing so hard she created it.

—Amy Waldman, The Submission (via r-enatus)

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I’m an ICU nurse who regularly suctions the intubated airways of former (and current) smokers.

But there’s this concept in medical ethics called autonomy.

Often, we see patients who have “done it to themselves”. People too obese to breathe properly. People with endocarditis from IV drug use. People with diabetic ketoacidosis - because checking one’s blood sugar is just so damned inconvenient. And yes, people with lung transplants, cancer, or COPD from smoking.

We get them better, they leave, and two months later they are back. We think of the financial burden they place on the system. We think of the patients in the ER who are waiting for an open bed. We get frustrated.

But we are not charged with parenting away the vices of mankind. And we are certainly not charged with curtailing freedoms.

If you want to solve a problem, look for an answer that works - not one that makes you feel good, or one that makes theoretical sense but has been shown to be unrealistic.

I once saw a chest tube placed for a patient with a massive pyothorax (that’s pus trapped in the space between the lung and the chest wall).

Immediately upon insertion, 1 liter of fluid drained. It looked a bit like cloudy minestrone and it smelled like death.

Paternalism is uglier than that.



I’m tired of this idea floating around that everyone should be self-contained and self-reliant and that needing validation or help from others is inherently wrong.

You know what? I’m a fucking lunatic. If you leave me to my own devices my psyche collapses into an egotistical, self-indulgent pile…

My patient is intubated and sedated and is therefore my favorite person on the whole unit right now.

Just leave me the fuck alone. Please. I can’t be funny tonight and small talk is making me want to die.

There must be something strangely sacred in salt. It is in our tears and in the sea.

—Kahlil Gibran, Sea and Foam  (via thatkindofwoman)

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Currently crying over a sock, a cup, and an ashtray full of cigarette butts from September.

I am the most sentimental fuck on the planet.


Absolutely amazing polymer clay journals by © Anna Kolesnikova (Mandarin Duck). Take a look at her portfolio, it’s really something.

You can look around in her Etsy shop here.

Also she has a very cool YouTube channel filled with tutorials and all kinds of crafty videos.

Become a fan of her on Facebook here.

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“Do you remember the way the girls
would call out “love you!”
conveniently leaving out the “I”
as if they didn’t want to commit
to their own declarations.

And I agree that the “I” is a pretty heavy concept”

—David Berman, Self Portrait at 28 (via bullshitalacarte)

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He exhausts me and I don’t love him. Only boys I love are allowed to exhaust me.

—Fortesa Latifi (via madgirlf)

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